I've read and re-read "Trading In The Zone" and "The Disciplined Trader" by Mark Douglas. Many of the things he talked about are part of what "I SEE and Believe and know how to do".
Yet at times I still break rules and engage in sabotaging behavior while trading.
That is my big question, Why?
Can you tell I've had a tough week trading?
Yes I can tell that you've had a tough week. Don't feel bad, we all have tough days, tough weeks, even tough months at times.
Since you "at times still break rules and engage in sabotaging behavior while trading", I suggest that you re-read "Trading In The Zone". Douglas speaks at length on that very subject. Maybe you simply need to re-visit that information.