I stopped for awhile. Certain painkillers stop your body from being able to grow muscle. Certain "stimulants" will cause your body to breakdown muscle and increase estrogen. Plus alcholol will increase estrogen. Add that all together with adrenal fatigue, stressed out kidneys and liver and having to quit all "supps" cold turkey when I went to rehab turned me into a little butterball with man tits and the strength of 5 year old girl.
My first priority was just getting healthy mentally and physically. Now Im at a good place overall so its time to slowly start again. Currently on 60 mg of test for hrt. Looking to drop to about 190 at 5% bf then slow add. But muscle memory should make it pretty easy for me to get to 220 at 10% or under.
I kept telling myself TRT @ 40, then I said 45, now that I'm almost 50 I'm thinking 55.
Once started I think you've gotta keep on to the end.
I can't comprehend the difficulties you've been through having to go to rehab.
Way beyond anything I could imagine.
And now being in a "better place" it seems so risky that one could go to a "worse place" at any time.
Your not very old.
Any of my relatives that have made it through without dieing were pretty old before they got it all together.
All the others, many, died before getting the chance.
Even my dad is back to drinking 6-8 beers daily.
But hey, he's old and can do what he wants at this point.
Apoears he may still get another divorce over it though. lol
Mom just needs to give it up and be happy with her cush lifestyle and leave the man be. hahaha